In The Blink of An Eye

One thing Tyler and I learned over this past weekend is that life can definitely change in the blink of an eye. As most of you know, it is no secret that Tyler and I have been trying to have a baby for almost 2 years now. We have tried fertility medication, been to a fertility clinic and then in Sept I had surgery for stage IV endometriosis. Then, on November 14th we thought our long drawn out and painful wait was over. We were ecstatic. We decided not to tell anyone except a couple of close friends. We knew it was early, so we wanted to wait until we went to the doctor before telling our parents and then we would tell them at Christmas.

Things appeared to be going pretty good. I was only 6 weeks along, but I still felt fine and was thinking maybe I'll miss the whole morning sickness thing. We had started doing what I'm sure many expectant parents do...thinking about baby names, thinking how our life would be different this time next year, how our friends kids will finally have play dates, etc. Well on Friday all of that disappeared in the blink of an eye.

I started having some spotting Friday morning when I got up getting ready for work. Well of course I started to worry. Considering our long road to get to this point, any little thing made me nervous. I called my doctor and set an appointment to come in. So Tyler and I went in at 2 to have things checked out. They did an ultrasound, we knew going in that it was so early there was a good chance we would not be able to see a heartbeat yet. Well, to our surprise, there it was. A tiny fluttering movement and she pointed out there it is, there is the heartbeat. No words can describe.

Everything looked ok at the time and the doctor just said to take it easy over the weekend. Well we had been home all of 15 minutes before my bleeding started. We waited a couple of hours thinking everything would be ok, that maybe it would stop, but it got to the point we knew we had to go to the ER. After a long 6 hours in the ER, they confirmed I'd lost the baby. No words can describe this either. Crushed.

It has been a very painful past couple of days and I know it's only beginning. Some of you may be wondering why in the world would I post this on our blog for everyone to see. Well for one, this blog is about our life, good and bad. And second it's a way for me to talk about it, get it out without having to actually talk to someone right now, which is very difficult to do at the moment.

Even though we are unsure about our future and getting pregnant again, one thing we do know is that God is in control. As hard as it is for two control freaks like us, we know we have to have faith in God during this time. No, we don't understand why and I'm sure we never will, but that is where faith comes in. We praise God in the good times and the bad. No, it's not easy at all, but we have to trust that God will bless this situation as painful as it is. We just ask that you continue to pray for us through this very painful and difficult time.
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1


**This next blog of us doing the zipline was the week I found out I was pregnant. I decided not to do the zipline just to be on the safe side so that's why you don't see me with all the gear on with everyone else.

Zipping!!

Thanks to Brian and some free coupons, we recently got to do a little ziplining up in west Nashville. This place called Adventure Works has a 9 zipline course that is just too much fun. The Baughmans, Brian, and Tyler belted up (Brooke couldn't, more on that later) and took to the skies. Although we REALLY wanted to hear some high-pitched Brian screaming, everyone did really well with minimal crashes into the landing pad. I highly recommend this activity...

Before we even started, Dave and I found some bamboo sticks. So of course, we had to sword fight with them.

It started with this...

And it ended with this. I'd like to point out that I am off the ground by plenty, just not bent in half like Dave the mini-ninja. That shirt looks odd, Dave... photoshop anyone?

Getting ready to go down the first line, not sure what to expect.

I always managed to come in backwards... I did not have skillz.

About 85 feet off the ground. Awesome.

Those safety belts were not comfortable. At all. Especially for guys. Nuff said.

Thank you, shadow, for making me look like a missing-tooth hillbilly.

Sam coming in for a landing.



My one good landing of the day, actually caught on film!




Double rainbo- I mean, double ziplines!

And Sam and Dave in a race for first.

Too. Much. Fun. Anyone want to join us for the next time?

Pizza Party

So to celebrate a large sum of Papa Murphy gift certificates won, the Hensons, Baughmans, Robinsons, and Browns got together to have a little pizza potluck. We all brought a Papa Murphy (and one Sir Pizza) and a bunch of little kids... the pizza provided something to eat, the kids provided entertainment.

Can I take a serious picture? No.... no....

Amanda and Matthew - he finally warmed up to all these people invading his house.

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Our awesome array of pizza to choose from!

Matthew and Kelsen having a little dinner date.

Beau looks good in that Stetson!

Like father, like daughter... she loved that remote controlled car!

Brooke getting to hold Haley... and she was NOT peed on like some of us were that night!! But overall we had a great time and gained ample amount of weight!

Last Tailgate of 2010

Not a bad way to end tailgating season 2010... seventy degrees and sunny, nice breeze, Mexican food, friends, and family.... and Nerf guns. With a crock pot of taco soup, some taquitos, an enchilada casserole, and cookies to snack on, we sent the home football season out in style (yeah, there's another game Thanksgiving weekend - we'll ignore that). It's sad, with so many weekday games we barely got to have our Saturday tailgates, but we made the most of what we had.

Obligatory self-shot!

Mom getting in some baby time with Haley... I don't think Mom wants to let her go...

Dad and his best offensive cornhole weapon - Becca knocking his shots in!

Daddy and Kelsen fetching our Nerf missle.

Mommy and Haley hanging out - already a month old??? Good grief!!

Greg using Kona as a shield.

Finally got to hold her myself!!

And then Brooke stole her back...

Combined weight loss = 180 pounds!

Someone is up to something no good...

Now she is REALLY up to no good.

The Baughman family with everyone who can move their head towards the camera actually looking!

And the Henson family! Next family picture - hopefully on the cruise!

Game Night

This year instead of having our big Halloween Party like last year, we decided to downsize and only have a few friends over. So we called up the Baughman's and the Brown's and decided to have some Taco soup, Halloween cupcakes and game night. We had such a great time and maybe game night will become a once a month tradition.

Our personalize Halloween cupcakes.

The kid looks cute even in glasses 10 sizes too big

Starting our game of Apples to Apples. By the end of the night Dave was anything but amused with this game.

Haley was such a good baby, but slept through all the fun.

However, big sister Kelsen didn't miss a beat of the fun. And this was Dave by the end of the night. Take a guess at which finger he's holding up behind those cards. I think deep down though he had a lot of fun.

Pumpkin Carving

Since we moved into our house, we have started the annual tradition of pumpkin carving. We waited a little later than usual this year, so the Wednesday before Halloween we loaded up and head over to Publix to pick out our pumpkins....who needs a pumpkin patch when you have Publix just right up the road?

Tyler getting ready to do his job of cutting the tops off
Yummy! Pumpkin insides...

Tyler and I have very different ways of cleaning out the pumpkins. I was taught you reach in with your hands a scrape. Tyler, on the other hand, uses a large spoon so he doesn't get his hand dirty while I'm over there with pumpkin guts up to my elbows....Our children will learn to do it my way, it's just more fun to get a little dirty.

Tyler concentrating on drawing the perfect face

The front of our house all ready for trick or treaters. Too bad we had all of two...

Close up view of the finished product. We have one happy and one scary pumpkin.

And the clean up begins. However, it was another fun successful year of pumpkin carving with the Hensons.